|to my parents:||I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment. I'm sorry I can't make good enough grades. I'm sorry I can't live up to your expectations.|
|to my friends:||I'm sorry I can't keep a long term friendship with any of you. I'm sorry we lose connection after a while. I'm sorry I never stayed.|
|to the people at my school:||I'm so sorry I'm weird. I'm sorry I don't fit in. I'm sorry I don't look pretty like all you.|
|to myself:||I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry if I put you down. I'm sorry I made you miserable.|
i want to smoke, drink, cut, jump off a roof top. i just want everything in my head to stop. i want it all to be over. i just cant fucking do it. im not strong. i am so weak. im a terrible person and anyone who says otherwise is lying through their fucking teeth.